Wow! Vulnerability is scary. I mean, really, really scary.
I have to admit, that while I am an “open book” and share freely, putting myself out there feels very different than anything I’ve done before. You see, I like to write (hence my blog here), read, share and talk, it’s the way I connect with people, but it can be scary to let all of my walls down.
For the past year, I have been transforming. Not just a shedding skin, but really working on me. A lot of mental, emotional and physical change has been happening. I can speak freely here, right? But also, was holding back a bit too. For fear of what people may say, for fear of what people might think, for not wanting to sound crazy or deviate from what we all know to be true. I am an individual, with my own thoughts and own ideas, and not that I wasn’t sharing those freely, but some of the things that I actually love and care about, I wouldn’t share because I didn’t want come off as “off base”. But, NO MORE!
I think it’s important to step into this space refreshed, renewed, with a new sense of self and perspective and the desire to continue to expand my reach, to further the impact that I hope I have, and have had on the community I am building. It is scary to put yourself out there, it is scary to share your inner most thoughts, it is scary to put trust in others, it is scary to know that something you create can impact other peoples lives in both positive and negative ways.
I create with love and the desire to spread love and hope that the people I reach with my words, my physical touch, my support, my wisdom only receive love. I am going into the 2nd half of 2021 more intentional, wide open, heart open, trusting and focusing on more love, and healing. Healing not just for me, or my family, but for all of those people and families that I reach and hope to further reach.
I am so grateful for the gifts that God has bestowed upon me, for the gifts that my ancestors have given to me, for the guidance and love and community that supports me, for the family that I get to raise and the family I come from that all helped to create this being that stands before you (me), raw and ready to change the world, in the most meaningful way.